I am literally going to kill myself
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I am 26 years old, I work full time.
My financial situation is a nightmare for me, I am working to support myself and my mother after my parents have separated, and put myself into some significant debt between helping her and helping my friend with some living expenses. My father barely helps us, so the responsibility to take care of her (she is older) has pretty much fallen on me. It is hard for me to get myself out from this situation, because employment opportunities are limited where I live, I do not have the option in my mind to move and leave my mom stranded, and I am not a healthy person. As a result of my income, I was recently kicked from public insurance and now am paying for insurance, and because I regularly see a doctor due to a heart condition meeting the deductible (paying out of pocket for all appointments) is literally not manageable for me, I have tried to take the option to return to public insurance but it is unavailable for me. Additionally, I have some previous struggles with anorexia/with vomiting and as a result, my oral hygiene is completely terrible, I am suffering from regular cavities and dental infections, currently trying to repair this problem but it is very expensive and I really cannot afford to help myself. I am literally 10s of thousands of dollars in debt due to medical expenses, college expenses, and an autoloan I took to buy my mother a car, as hers broke down and she had no means of transport.
If I cannot resolve this financial burden, I will kill myself. Situation is in part my own fault, but I cannot continue to live like this, I work so often and my life is completely stagnant, every day feels like suffering. There is no point to my life in this condition. |
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